Around seven years ago, I almost ran away from home. Unhappy, upset with myself, bitter towards everyone; I felt useless, hopeless and helpless at that time. For those of you who think that I am so well-behaved and that I am always in great shape, for those who think that I have never been buried in deep shit and have never caused troubles, maybe you need to think again.
One night I can’t stand my situation anymore and decided that I wanted to just go away from home. When I was at my room packing my clothes, all of the sudden my father opened the door and asked me what I was doing.
I was desperate to show him my anger, then answered, “I want to go away from here.”
But then my dad’s reaction was far from my expectation. He didn’t show any anger back, didn’t punish me, didn’t banish me, and he didn’t even try to talk me out of my idea to go. He just said something like this:
“Do you really want to go now? It was just yesterday you decorated your room and put up these nice posters. If you want to go, that’s okay. But, make sure the place you are going to is comfortable. There’s food there that you can eat and you can sleep comfortably. And the most important, you are going to be safe and sound there. Do you know where you are going to move already…?”
What do you think – how would a child feel when she received an answer just like this? My heart melted, I felt like I got the most precious gift ever – the feeling of being loved and forgiven. I decided to not go from home.
And who knew how big of a difference it would make if I got different response from my dad.
So folks, when we look at it objectively, at the time my dad and I were actually forgiving each other. He understood, accepted and forgave my disrecpectful and childish behavior. And I understood, accepted, and forgave the imperfection of my dad as a father, a husband, and a human. And at the end we are all imperfect, right? We are growing together.
Perhaps you have felt what I felt.
Perhaps… right at this moment someone is waiting to be forgiven by you. And perhaps you don’t know, but a word of forgiveness from you can really free them out from their suffering.
Perhaps… you are not yet ready to accept the apology from someone. But perhaps that someone is already relieved by now, and you are the one who still hold on to the anger you keep soundly in your heart. You are still not willing to open up and tied to your pride.
Perhaps… you need to apologize, too. Because everyone is not spared from making a mistake.
I am grateful that throughout life I get the chance to be forgiven over and over again by both of my parents. They never stop to accept me after I “lost the wars” outside.
Our experiences maybe similar, maybe different. But what most important that I can share is…
It is always easier to punish our own selves. To think that we are low, stupid, hard headed, useless, that we can’t do anything right and that we are worthless. It is easier to blame our own selves and think that by doing that we are learning to be better. While actually, it is when we want to look good in front of others, we are feeding our own ego.
Perhaps… now is the time for you to forgive yourself. Understand, accept, and forgive all the mistakes from the past, present, or even the future. Because in the future you know that you are still not spared from imperfection. To understand, accept, and love our own self is what make us perfect the way we are.
Please forgive all my mistakes. I hope you’ll accept my apology.
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Love and light,
Amelia is a Quantum Healing Practitioner and Intuitive Coach. Her goal is to help you find out who you truly are and why you are here, and therefore, support you to live yourself as the true you – the best version of yourself. She does that by giving you tools that you can immediately apply to improve your life, your relationship, your career, your health and many more than you can possibly dreamed of by incorporating methods such as past life regression, hypnotherapy, chakra wisdom healing, clearing, card reading, life coaching and meditation. Now, she serves through one-on-one therapies and coaching, and also offline and online classes, workshops and retreats. She regularly shares her passion through the newsletters that you can subscribe for free at ameliadevina.com. You can contact Amelia at firstname.lastname@example.org or her Facebook page and her instagram/ twitter @ameliadevina777.